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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 01:23

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

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Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Why do I have an itch in my labia, white gooey and thick discharge which doesn't have a smell but my vagina does sometimes and both me and my partner do not have STDs, what is it?

I had hoped to write a book about this .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

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Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

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Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Was to survive, this bastard.

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He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

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At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

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I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Who then, do I blame.?

She married twice! .

How do you have intercourse with a girl who can remember you for a long time?

I was seconnd youngest,

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

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His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I was very sick at this time too.

Put me off passion for life!!

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19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I have no regrets .

She loved him until the end.

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But it wasn’t much.

(And it was in our own minds.)

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

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She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

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Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

But ive been too sick for many years..

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Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

They are buried together, in the same grave..

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

This is soul school!.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Im still living with it.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

One cannot live in the past .

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I think the readers, may guess!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I don,t even have a pension.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I said to her

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

But, we were locked up after school.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I couldn’t, believe it.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

She wouldn,t have been !

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

As i do to all so called friends.?

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

And who doesn’t know suffering?

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I will be 64.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

He resisted the act ,that day.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

She found it foreign!.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

It was going to be , some day.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

She was in good health!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I was scared of men, in general

Where the ultimate outsiders.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

So, i spoilt her more .

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I never cut or harmed myself..

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

What did i know ?

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

My mum and dad in the seventies!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

My life is so biszare .

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I know ,a lot about trauma.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

The only rule us 5 kids had .

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I waited trembling.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Ive learnt so much.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

We were not on the streets..

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I could never make a relationship work though!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Comes on , in middle age.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

We all went to grammer schools

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Would this be the day?

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

He knew the spot.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

When she asked me how she looked .

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

So whats the point in blame.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I was 9 years of age.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

My family never makes their pension either.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

All the time i was locked up.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

And i lived it daily.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I write beautiful poetry .